Your only anchor and hope is God- He lost His son, He bore that grief already. He stared death, hell and the grave square in the eye and He stripped it's power. Conquered it so that NOTHING can separate us from the love of the Father. Only in such depth of weakness and hopelessness, as losing a child, can a parent be made strong in Christ alone. No drug can drown sorrow and grief. There is nothing to numb it. Only by Faith can you walk through the valley of the shadow of death because He carries you. He proves to you here in the valley that He could never ever forsake you. You are never alone. Even in your darkest hour, He is ever near. You want to believe as a parent that you are unselfish enough to choose to live for your spouse or other children, but even then they are not enough to keep you anchored. You will sink- your strength will fail and Like Peter, you will jump out of the safety of the boat now filling with water, and the only word you hear over the winds of fear, grief, sorrow, and loneliness is "Come" - come, and I will give you rest. You can walk on the waters of fear, grief, pain, and sorrow. In your can't - He can and He will, because when I am weak…. HE IS MADE STRONG.